Sorry to hear bout the depression episode, As I have been battling it for years myself. I lost My mother due to cancer at a young age(10yearsold) and had a very bad drug problem during my twenties. And have been wed to a bipolar women for 11 years. I hate to spill it all out there but,I have found hope thru Jesus Christ,help that no medicine ever gave me. And dont ya hate how things that ya love seem so impossible to do during these times? I would be interested in some of your guns as something to learn how to work on. If you still have any left. In the meantime I will be praying for us,and every helpless,hopeless creature that inhabits this world. Have a nice day Jason