Paul buddy,
I wouldn't tell anyone what to do, but I'll tell you that no matter how far you go you will never out run the memories of your dad. I lost my dad 14 years ago, and I think about him often, and the fond memories of my youth. All that I can say is think what your dad would say. And I think he would tell you life is for the living, so go out there and live your life.
I wish you the very best Paul, in what ever you decide to do, go with God !
Bill